Last week, I observed the Jewish holiday of Yom Kippur, the Day of Atonement. On this holiday, we fast as we ask G-d for forgiveness, reflecting upon our misdeeds of the past year. Sounds like a real fun time, no?
When I was a kid, it used to be hell-in-a-dress for me, having to spend a full day in synagogue: All my friends were there but we couldn’t hang out. We had to sit nicely with our parents and pay attention and feel badly for the things we had done wrong. My stepfather was the rabbi, and my family sat right in the front, so everyone could see everything I did… It probably sucked a lot less than I’m remembering it, but it felt like torture back then. As I’ve grown, I’ve come to appreciate the holiday, for both the traditions surrounding it and the time afforded to reflect upon my life. It’s really nice to have a reality check built in to my year.
This year, I really got a chance to sort through the dynamic spectrum of Jewish experiences I’ve been fortunate to have in my life. I’m slowly coming to recognize how significant a role Judaism has played in the major events of my life, and I want to develop and further my understanding of Judaism in order to fully integrate it into my life, because, although I may have denied or ignored it in my past, this is who I am. I am Jewish to the core, and a multifaceted mutt of a Jew at that, and it is only through understanding my personal history, where I come from, that I will be able to truly understand where I belong.
Ok, so that explains the “Jewish” part of the blog name, but what about the “Mom” part?
I’m not dying to get married and have children any time in the immediate future, although I’m sure it will happen one day. Honestly, this isn’t because I’m dying to be a mom, but that I’m trying to learn how to take care of myself like an actual adult … I’m such a sloppy university student. I forget to take out the trash and do my laundry. Most days my room looks like the aftermath of a hurricane (yeah, Hurricane I-Was-In-A-Rush). I’m lucky that I have a cleaning lady come in twice a week, because I’ve never really cleaned a bathroom. Most of my friends are not domestic failures like I am, and so I’m trying to catch up to the rest of the group. Peer pressure, if you will.
The one domestic skill I have under my belt is in the kitchen, sort of. I excel at certain pastry, while I am honing the rest of my culinary skills. I’ve been a vegetarian for most of my life, so I admit that I really don’t know how to cook chicken or meat, although I think I can in theory. I’m on a journey to eating healthier and understanding how my nutrition and lifestyle choices affect my health. I just started working out for the first time and I’m integrating a lot of raw foods into my diet. I don’t know where this path will lead, but I am rearing to go for the journey.
Basically, this blog is me trying to figure out my life. I’ll be posting pictures, recipes, information about the holidays, and all kinds of other fun stuff. Stay tuned.